notmyheart/ apathetically

thisisnotmyheart

Sunday, May 31, 2009 @ 9:42 PM
psltc;

ganbatte, for tmr's psltc

keeping it updated for each's day of this week.

gotta b exciting,
gotta b great;
definitely learning experience,
just fabulous holiday

Wednesday, May 27, 2009 @ 8:30 PM
cold laughter;

i am pissed at YOU. yes, you.

you, you and you. oh, and one more you.

do you how exactly irritating you are?

you tell us we are like the representatives of the principal, but excuse me? is this how YOU treat us? as a teacher in charge?

' i dun care anymore' how that exactly teacher-like? and putting pressure on another 'you', poor girl.

but you really dun have to be under pressure you know.. and throw it all out on us... its really annoying, you do it all the time.. i really carn stand it. control yourself girl, you dun see me throwing myself all over you.

and you, yes, you, although you haven done anything, which is exactly why im pissed. hey excuse me? what are you exactly thinking?

i have freaking piano lessons IN PREPARATION for Piano EXAM. the hell w you all.

i have alr sacrifice so much, and this is how you repay me?

excuse me, girl's wrath are hateful, scary little things.

the kind that wraps you around the waist and never let you fall

back into nothingness

but pull you down into fiery pits of torture and pain.

the kind that makes you close to death but strangely alive, feeling and seeing.

slowly bleed you and hear your cries...

cut you up slowly, bit by bit, vein by vein, and onto your arteries...

pry your head open, oh-so-slowly and de-liciously

oh the horror, and so much more.

tell me, how much more can you bear?

i can tell SO MUCH MORE.

and do so much more than you can ever think.

its called human, its called female,

its called me.

now you know why you you you you are such suckers?

good night

sweet dreams(:

be careful of the little shadows and evily sweets i send out at night(:

(smiles)

Sunday, May 24, 2009 @ 3:48 PM
sore throat; fluu

ill

sick

tired

Saturday, May 23, 2009 @ 12:22 PM
Jane Zhang- tianxiawushuang

Friday, May 22, 2009 @ 9:46 PM
convo w sab ho

me: whahhaa.and you still you still say want to interview my neighbour.guess what??

08Y1J: haha

me: you know my piano exam piece??my neighbour go copy meand started playing too

08Y1J: yeah

me: and horribly

08Y1J: woah! me: and disgustingly irrtating right?walao

08Y1J: wah seh

me: not like they dun have their song to play

08Y1J: he really copy cat sia

me: nono.GOT TWO the son and mom "you ma ma bing you er zi"

08Y1J: ooh, so its THEY

me: the hell w them to the son: childish to the mom: stupid AND childish and assholey and bitchy and so china-y eww.

08Y1J: o.Obut are they frm china?

me: yeah the dad is not. BUT ALOT LIKE THEM

08Y1J: haha

me: disgrace us singaporeans. eww.

08Y1J: but heng we nvr go interview them sia

me: the children ah. EWW.

08Y1J: if not perhaps they might?

me: damn high pitch voice. and damn loud. attention seekers. wannabes. kinda sad.

08Y1J: i sense symphathy? -.-

me: sarcasm. And yeah...symphathy like what ms chan have said. "circumstance ... the
upbringing... aii... sigh.

08Y1J: LOL. dun nid feel so sry lor maybe u wud like to educate them urself? xD

me: IM SOOOO SORRY. arugh. i rather go jump nigeria falls than teach them

08Y1J: erm..

me: whahaha.

08Y1J: wow. nice comparison -.-

me: suckish.

08Y1J: i see ur point

me: ah.i shall post this convo on blog.whaha.

08Y1J: ooi! scully he go read ur blog how?

me: whahahaha.

08Y1J: den i DIE

me: wow. like he know you. like he know my blog. like he even know its me. LIKE I EVEN
CARE. WHAHAHAH.

08Y1J: erm..i doubt u do xD

me: whaha!!!! yay.we got MR ZEIN!! told you he'll say yes. we HIS former class...xan still say we
are in 2009. whahhaha!!! so furniie

08Y1J: erm..but still, i tot he would u know.. reject sia. But nvrtheless. ""WE GOT HIM!

me: whaha. he wont.he nice nice one...lol. if i post this...i think many many people would freak.
whahahaha!!!

08Y1J: zzzzzehh, ur strings today very fun sia! make me wanna play too ><

me: ...lol. only this time... cos mr han "talked" to them i think.

me: whahah.

08Y1J: erm..serious?

me: yeah

08Y1J: den dat's gd? xD

me: mebbe.

08Y1J: LOL. at least i saw u participating!

me: erms.

08Y1J: smiling or wadever

me: duh.

08Y1J: xD

me: sot was there!(("

08Y1J: LOL. den dat;s a good sign dat u r active! xD

me: ??

08Y1J: as in participating. isn't that gd?show's that u r starting to be enthu! (:

me: dots?

08Y1J: LOL. oh yeah,

me: im really gonna post this!!

08Y1J: monday bring sound recorder?

Thursday, May 21, 2009 @ 8:23 PM
charmed;

gah.
was watching charmed online.
in episode 4; piper fell in love with a ghost.
they couldn't touch each other.
and they had to imagine.
the ghost had died on his birthday.
kinda makes you wanna treasure your birthday huh...
gosh; im crying.

gah...

Tuesday, May 12, 2009 @ 10:42 PM
天蓝色的彼岸

- 我特别怀念那种感觉。风吹在脸上。也许你还活着，根本没把这当一回事。但我真的很想那种感觉。
- 实际上，我怀疑，是不是一切都被安排好了，你永远不可能参加你的葬礼。
- 你不存在了，但生活还在！
- 有时候，树就像人一样。
- 他继续走，我伸出我幽灵的手去拉他的手。我们一起走在小道上走，手来着手，我的手来着爸爸的手。
- 我爱非常，非常，非常地你们。比我能说出来的还要爱你们。

Monday, May 11, 2009 @ 6:32 PM
SE Tickets

street cello Pictures, Images and Photos

hi all
selling SE tickets

the programme is really very furnie; espescially if you guys call for an encore; you'll b in for a big surprise(:
i really starting to enjoy SE alot now, the music and cello<3 daisuki
whaha, so i wanna tell you all to come for the concert, and you'll b happy and touched, jus like me.

if our great music, you'll b touched and happy.
that i can promise.

ps: i almost cried backstage when i heard londonderry air played for syf.

Saturday, May 9, 2009 @ 12:13 PM
wanton mee!

oh well, i just love wanton mee.
i just ate it.
i love wanton mee.
probably something YihXi wont say.
but i'll say this one more time:
i Love Wanton Mee.
ilwm
ilwm
ilwm

wahaha.
science project
minna-san, AJA AJA FIGHTING!

Tuesday, May 5, 2009 @ 6:28 PM
eff-arr-eee-aye-kay-why-ole-you

not helping problem by scolding me, i know i did badly for history
not helping by screaming saying i say ;walao', give me a better word then
not helping by saying i should piortise; im already trying my best
not helping by saying i should solve my problems;

you know i have countless of them,
you know i carn solve all
you know i need help
but you gave none
you know im like this,
you know you shouldn't say that
if you think you should
i rather you shut your mouth
if you think you should
i think you dun noe me well
aww,how sad.
my blood runs wild and free
we are of same blood
we are of same race
we are of the same family
marvelously, you still dun understand me
you aint helping by saying im screwed;
you aint helping my screwed position
you aint helping this very screwed life bore you
just go away,
for this time.

utter helplessness and weakness
all e xp o s e d;

Friday, May 1, 2009 @ 6:34 PM
Tribute to Love Monster

Love monsters(:

Kurou and Hiyo -childhood

Kurou(: demon king

Hiyo's Dad (black and white crow)

J, L(!) and K (in that order)

oh and the bat's KiKi-chan

Kurou's sistah, Haine(!) and friend(:

hiyo's friends(:

i simply love it(:
KUROU, HAINE, L
im rooting for you guys!

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the apathetic one

stubborn and unwavering, standing at the ready
and unflattered by power
She has a sense of self-respect that runs close to arrogance,
as well as an unshakeable self-confidence and belief
She would not bow her head unreasonably
close to pure, that is, in eyes

She is amused, shown in her hardened black eyes
I wonder why?
Do you wonder what she does when she is not happy?
saa dou kana.. i know you do not want to know
its probably mind-blowing-ly terrifying
she is like a total control freak
And she is the one true perfectionist
Plus she's an utter egotist
She wonders why she is irrational
a questioned unanswered for five hundred and forty nine years
She is starting to feel the pull of music, and of life
and she wonders if she can live with it
whether or not she is capable
and she needs someone beside her,
supporting her quietly from the shadows
while she does her stuffs
She wishes there's someone
sometimes, its the Lord that's all that she wants
She also feels like she is blabbering
love it when she pays absolute attention to you
and special cares for you too
saa... see how you gether her data...
mada mada dane

number of deaths: 13
impending: 1

this is blog is dedicated to:
3. dedicated to those of manipulative minds
2. supportive of higher-order thinking
1. encouraging all purveyors of believable lies