Wednesday, March 18, 2009 @ 6:17 PM


everynight,
i cry myself to sleep
thinking,
why does this happen to me?
thinking,
that some nights i'll be
comforted with your
presence.

although you
never appeared i
waited
long till
i fall asleep
alone in mybed
everday
i question why
must this problems
haunt the likes of
me?
seems unfairly
treated, with
torture and pain thats
unbearable and
painful
oh when, when
will you appear?
perhaps never but i'll
wait, for you to
rescue me from
these ghosts, come
embrace.

i realized the ugly
truth, that you have
forgotten me.
I laugh,
crying. Now there be no
one, except
me
time passed, you finally
showed, and asked
you've changed
i laughed,
bitterly, embracing my
ghosts,
i laugh,
everyday with my
plastic smile and
energetic face, together with
me. Then faced by the truth at home,
then would i
break downand laugh,
joyfully, knowing
that i didn't mean anything i've said

i'll smile, watching people
break down.
i'll smile, watching them
suffer, like you did me
i'll smile, when you no longer
have any control over
me

i'll embrace my ghosts
i'll embrace your ghosts, and
seduce them.
i'll embrace your
broken shell, together
with
your lifeless self
that's when i proclaim
i have mastered
and return back to my
mundane life
hidden behind everyone's ghosts
for they love me now
for i gladly embrace them
for they cluster amongst me
telling me sweet secrets
whispering comforting suggestives
giggling your fall

i await the day
most eagerly
passionatelyand when its arrives,
enchant and embrace
seduce gently, oh
so gently...

stubborn and unwavering, standing at the ready
and unflattered by power
She has a sense of self-respect that runs close to arrogance,
as well as an unshakeable self-confidence and belief
She would not bow her head unreasonably
close to pure, that is, in eyes

She is amused, shown in her hardened black eyes
I wonder why?
Do you wonder what she does when she is not happy?
saa dou kana.. i know you do not want to know
its probably mind-blowing-ly terrifying
she is like a total control freak
And she is the one true perfectionist
Plus she's an utter egotist
She wonders why she is irrational
a questioned unanswered for five hundred and forty nine years
She is starting to feel the pull of music, and of life
and she wonders if she can live with it
whether or not she is capable
and she needs someone beside her,
supporting her quietly from the shadows
while she does her stuffs
She wishes there's someone
sometimes, its the Lord that's all that she wants
She also feels like she is blabbering
love it when she pays absolute attention to you
and special cares for you too
saa... see how you gether her data...
mada mada dane

number of deaths: 13
impending: 1


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