Thursday, July 16, 2009 @ 7:27 PM
spectrum of emotions

somewhat happy, somewhat contented
somewhat confuse, definitely not constant

its weird when you know not yourself
the way emotions spin you round and round
difficulties you face
only to block people that you'll hate
people you hurt
causes you distress and unrest
only to understand you didn't mean intentionally to
emotions of a variety
difficulty when converge
into a human heart
consume her mind and soul
it would be hard to free
a strong person it needs
people that hurts you
karma and cycle
superstitious shit business

advice to myself:
to not think too much
when you carn handle
a hard cover fragile being
you'll fall and break
think of the consequence
live a happy life
being happy around yourself
and everyone else.
but beware
problems do not solve on their own
problems do not dissappear
they haunt you till it's dissolved
in pure salt sour solution
better soon or later
better strong than fragile
work on it
faith and hope stands by you
also the Lord,
who'll help me

thank you

stubborn and unwavering, standing at the ready
and unflattered by power
She has a sense of self-respect that runs close to arrogance,
as well as an unshakeable self-confidence and belief
She would not bow her head unreasonably
close to pure, that is, in eyes

She is amused, shown in her hardened black eyes
I wonder why?
Do you wonder what she does when she is not happy?
saa dou kana.. i know you do not want to know
its probably mind-blowing-ly terrifying
she is like a total control freak
And she is the one true perfectionist
Plus she's an utter egotist
She wonders why she is irrational
a questioned unanswered for five hundred and forty nine years
She is starting to feel the pull of music, and of life
and she wonders if she can live with it
whether or not she is capable
and she needs someone beside her,
supporting her quietly from the shadows
while she does her stuffs
She wishes there's someone
sometimes, its the Lord that's all that she wants
She also feels like she is blabbering
love it when she pays absolute attention to you
and special cares for you too
saa... see how you gether her data...
mada mada dane

number of deaths: 13
impending: 1


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