crying hearts of laughter
and it hurts even more when you realised they like the way you are freezed up...
it hurts to realised that the closest people do not know you at all
you are numb and feelingless
you start to panic and are helpless
desperate for hope and joy and happiness
to smile when you are in a dangerous home
sweet confort would be all you'll ever want and need
then you go crazy.
i want to know what love is
i want to know what caring someone means
i want to know if im capable of it
i fear the worst
i fear the darkness
yet i still embrace it
and carass it
whispers sweet nothings in its ears
and be engulf by it
you'll hear the happy laughter
while you show forced smiles and laughs
so fake its like real
cos its been there since forever
writing emotionly only when you are really upset
and exaggerate things and get upset all over
ha, what a laugh.
foolish humans,
foolish girl, you'll never...
